Thursday, June 18, 2009


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Delete Post Edit Blog Posts I just want to encourage everyone to trust God; no matter how grim or dead a situation looks; its not. As long as we are still breathing; God is still working with us and for us. Dont look at your situation; pleave what God says. God says "I want to prosper you as your soul prospers". As we go through our days, lets remember that each day is a new mercy and each day is another chance to grow, to seek and acknowledge the things that which are God.

My biggest urgence to everyone is to change your thinking; stop thinking so much; the enemy wants to keep your mind busy so that you can not see; yes, I said enemy because its real and if you want the enemy to release your money, your family, your dreams, your prosperity; you have to make him give it back because its not his anyway.

Everything under the heavens belong to God and no one can take what God has given; they can try,it may seems like they won; but my faith tells me that the promises of God is true. Have faith, faith walks and it talks, it shake hands, it writes proposals, it goes to banks for loans in a recession, it starts a business in a recession,it marries when mom and dad did not, Faith moves from glory to glory.



Who am I , a woman of God, a minister, a healer, a intercessor, a servant, a child of God. I am no one more than who God says I am and above all of these I am alive because of Gods unconditional love for me. I am free and I just want to share freedom with you.

Come out of the prisons of your minds, dont let the enemy catch you sleep; the word says a man without vision perish. The enemy wants to keep you for seeing and believing.

Open your eyes and live in destiny; we are God's Purpose and God is ours.

I love you, thats all I have to share because the Lord said thats it.

In Peace , Power and prosperity

Thursday, June 4, 2009


Let's talk Suicide

I have an overwhelming feeling that today; we need to address suicide. I am not going to be all super religious about this topic; because suicide is just as real as the American dream. Apart of my testimony is that I use to be suicidal for years. From age 13-25; thats along time to be confused and in bondage to deceit, hurt and distrust. I know that in these times we are often taught to keep alot of things hidden; dont display vulnerability. Sometimes people dont actually say thisto us; its the things that happen to us; that indirectly tells us not to show weakness or a need for help.

I say the devil is a liar! God says that his strength is made perfect in our weakness. Never, allow anything or anyone to convince you that you have to cover up what you feel. If you dont get those things that hurt out; they began to kill yoy from the inside out and it begans to fester over into your heart, your mind and no doubtly your actions. Free your mind!

If you are hurting , have disappointments express them; talk to a friend, go to a parent,a teacher, a sibling, Pastor; most importantly talk to God. God can change lives; I am a witness that prayer helps; it works. If you have to get a journal write your feelings down; label your journal,Letters to God and when you write these letters you are sharing your feelings with God and leave them there. Dont go back and read the letter because all you are doing is putting back in what you just put out; gave to God.

Never hold your hurt in; these feelings of loneliness , confusion, neglect, abuse, disappointment are real and if you dont acknowledge them they set up a secret bootcamp and you can spend years in combat with them. I suffered from this until; I finally ask God to free me; I had to be free; I couldnt spend the rest of my life feeling like I wanted to die every other day.

There had to be a purpose for my life because for over 12 years of attempts they all failed; my God, my God, definitely had a plan for me and he has one for you, I dont know if you are feeling this are someone you know; but it is time to release this bondage; we will no longer allow the enemy to control what God never gave him control over; our lives; God is the Beginning and the end theirfore all things begin with him and ends with him. Everything in between is to be lived knowing that God is in control of it all including our lives.

We will leave and not die; we will have the victory! I want you to know that the day I gave my life to God on my 25th birthday; I never ever suffered with suicidal thoughts or attempts. I have been hurt since then, mistreated, left and neglected; but, I know that God loves me and he always take care of me. I know God's love so in those times; thats what I leanon. God's unconditionally love. God loves you outrageously! No matter what you are, what you did, who you did, what you have or dont have. God loves you despite of your not loving yourself. God can teach you how to love yourself and when he does you can tell someone else how God didthat for you.

I did not wake up and say I am not going to kill myself onmy own; I was suicidal all my life at that point; hurt and pain thats what I knew. God did it; his peace did it; see he said when you give your life to him you are born again; you become a new creature; his holyspirit lives in you and when that happens you began to change in ways you never though; your desires change and for me the desire to kill my self changed.

I started to learn of a love that loved me when I paid it no attention; I started to hear that God said I was more than a conqueror and that if any man be in christ is a new creatue;old things are pass away; behold all things become new; that told me that that girl from before was gone. I had to walk in my new because that was my chance I had been longing for.

I enourage you; if you do not know christ; to seek him and if you want to know christ right now and to receive him in your life; say this prayer with me:

Lord, I ask that you come into my life
my heart as my shepherd, my Lord and
my saviour, I ask that you forgive me
of all my sins; I repent Lord
one by one. In Jesus Name Amen!

Welcome Home! I urge you to find a covering; a church that is bible taught so that you can began to develop your relationship with God through his son Jesus Christ. Everyone needs to be under a Pastor for protection, nurturing and elevation. I pray that you seek this. As, you began your new journey; there will be difficult times; but there will be some amazing blessings to come especially out of those difficult times. You can always come here to this blog and as I grow; we grow. If you have any questions, comments are prayer request; always contact me by clicking on comments.

I pray for everyone; even if you never make a comment because i know there are persons who view this blog and never sign in as a follower or they follow me privately; thats fine. I just want to be a blessing; I pray for each of you; however, if you need to connect with me directly leave a comment.

Remember, when we have to ask God for forgiveness and God gives it freely, then forgive those who hurt you and please forgive yourself.

I love you!

For your Study and strengthening
1 Corinthinians 14:33
2 Corinthians 5: 17 -19
2 Corinthians 12:9
Galatians 5:1
Ephesians 4:31-32

Monday, June 1, 2009

Scripture of the Week

Today's Verse:
For he hath made him to be sin for us, who knew no sin; that we might be made the righteousness of God in him.
2nd Corinthians 5:21 / KJV

God loved us this much that he would allowed perfection to be killed for us; how many people do you know that would die for you and if they would; do you think they would do it without second thought. If they could they'll try to save themselves and you too but they probably would have a second thought about just outright dying.

Jesus didnt; he welcomed it; God allowed it; he did it so we could have a chance to receive a blessing from God. He did and God set it up; so God wanted us for himself; he had to send perfection in the world; to show us all the possibilities of what could be birthed in our lives; if we only chose him.


A little about Me

I love you all in Christ Jesus!You are blessing me; I pray that this blog is more than just a blog to you because it is not just. It is God's love for you; he uses me to encourage you and I pray that he is pleased with me. Its never me; but all of God. I am just a young woman he loves God and wants to spread that Love to all of you; so that you know that you are not in it by yourself.

Briefly, I will tell you; I was not raised in the church, didnt know any gospel songs and still dont know those old hymns. I never blessed my food before I ate; I never woke in the morning saying, Oh haulelujah, thank you Jesus.

I was raised differently, my mother spoke of God; but we had no intimacy with God; we read the bible I remember on stormy nights, went to church a few times. I am saying, I didnt know God, to tell you the truth I was an angry child, so I had beef with God growing up because of the turmoil in my young life. However, I knew there was something bigger than me; Im inquisitive so I asked all those how and why questions. I looked and the sky and wondered; hmmmmmmm how?

Well, I foundout 6 years why and how and whom was responsible. I even learned the reason for my turmoil and still learning; I on my 25th Birthday gave my life to God and I have not looked back since. I am not saying I havent fallen in these 6 years some old habits were easier to break than others; but God loves to step in and pull out the ragedy. He has continued to pull out the old and put in the new.

I know a few Gospel songs now, I praise God more today than yesterdays past, I have learned what prayer, praise and worship are. I now tell others about God even my Mom and Dad; who didnt really teach me about God. I know God and the same person who was upset with God; now reverance God. I use to walk out a room when people would start to talk about him; I didnt want to be bothered; he I thought didnt care enough or why. So, I didnt care about him.

But there is a God, who loves, his mercy covers a multitude of sins; he forgave my mercy and like the shepherd leaves his flock to go after the one sheep; Jesus came looking for me at age 24 and I ignored but I felt something and a few months later after saying yes, Lord I here you; please forgive me for all the times I was mad at you; I repent Lord for my sins, please come into my life; I want you as my Lord. Thank you for wanting me. That ws the best birthday ever, I was born that day; I was a 25 year old baby in christ and I felt good to say God Im sorry and God began to put me in his hands and he took me like clay and he has been shaping me since. I know that the molding will not end as long as I am here on earth; I am not perfect; never will be in this life; but in the next; everything and every body will be perfect.

So, I have joy knowing that if I close my eyes tonight and Gods perfect rest overtake my physical body that there is a Perfect me to come and the clay has taken form. I didnt know God and for years didnt want to; Im being honest. I was a young girl mad at the world, my cards were not a good hand; but God had a different plan that I would become a different a different woman.

The woman would be different from the girl; the girl would die at 25 and the woman would be born and this woman would seek a new life, confused, with little to no understanding; but every day her heart would grow; a new flutter would stir inside and still being inquisitive she would seek more and the more she sought the more she fell in love with the Christ and the Father, the more she desired to be in this new family.

No longer the same; day by day becoming new, taking milestones, going through the ages and stages of development as a newborn then a toddler, now a adolescent knowing that full maturity will come in heaven; because as long as I breathe; God will still be working on me. But, this woman is willing, willing to at 3:45 a.m. to be sitting at the computer encouraging you; willingly to serve God by serving you.

I use to be suicidal from age 13-24;I use to wonder why my plan never succeeded; now I know God had a plan for me that during my despair and lack of wisdom and understanding; I could not see. Now, I know that God's plan should always be my prayer. Thank you, is always on my lips and in my heart because God said you will live and not die; I know the plans that I have for you. He kept me alive;12 years of trying to end my life and God kept me for this moment and I bless him for it.

The day I gave my life to God; I never had another suicide thought and I thank God; God gave my mind peace and my heart heals everyday; the scars vanish daily; God's peace is perfect. Weeping last for a night but joy comes in the morning. Please, I beg you dont give up; God loves you; he has a plan; a perfect plan. No weapon formed against me shall prosper; you should always speak that; God has it;the weapons will form but they will not prosper.

Okay, I said this was going to be brief but the holyspirit has its way; this is brief really because this is not the tip of my testimony but I just felt I should share with you today.

I love you!

Ripped, Scratched and All!

Hello Beautiful Blessed people of God. Do you know how blessed you are; Let me tell you. Your eyes are reading this message; your hands are working the keyboard,your mind is operating; you can put a finger under your nose and feel air. You are alive and You are blessed. What an awesome testimony you have in just these things. God chose to speak life into your lungs and limbs for another day. Someone, Bless the Lord right now for being able to think about walking and your legs move.

Lord, Bless your name. Haulelujah!
I pray in the name of Jesus that where ever he leads this topic that I am obedient and that you are obedient and receive a blessing too; as these words ripped and scratched blessed my spirit tonight. Amen.

I know you looked at the title and I cant take credit for it it was given to my Pastor at night church; and it was his sermon message. However, God put it in my heart to come here and be a witness of the word that he put in the mouth of the prophet and I will allow God to do with it as he will. I felt I should use these words as our topic today;in this time our world is facing some storms; we all have some bruises, scratches, rips and tears in our lives.

They may be current or past; but they are there. I thank GOD for what he is doing for us all even in these times; God is still blessing us in what we feel are the worst times of our lives. See, nothing under the heavens is new to God because before he created the world; it was in his hands just waiting on him to call it forth.

We have to trust that the promises that God has given us; God will and has already called it forth; we have to trust that they will come forth; no matter what the rips, or scratches look like.

If the enemy ripped you from your family; God says that he is a restorer and he will restore your family. How, do I know that? Because God said let there be light AND THEN THERE WAS LIGHT; so,if God can just say something and it happens; I know that God said he wants to prosper me as my soul prosper; the blessing comes after God speaks it and God spoke it long , long ago and I have witnessed it in my life and others; God is not a liar.

God says I will give you the desires of your heart; regardless of what you see; I said "I" will give you.

I know that we have situations that are ragedy; but Jesus deals with ragedy stuff and ragedy people.

He does not run from it; though he sleighs me yet will I trust him; make that a confession. That's personal.

Sometimes we have to wrap our minds around the fact that we need the ragedy to appreciate the blessing that God has for us; see, if we didnt have the rips or the scratches; would we pray; would we learn how to pray; would we instantly know God; would we accept the Lord as our savior.

I mean thats real; I dont think that I would know God the way I do know without my bruises, my falls, my self inflicted mistakes; because truth be told I caused alot of things on my own; however, and BUT there is a God that Loves me and Loves you that says no matter the cause I'll handle the affects.No weapon formed against you shall prosper.

The way the Lord handles the affects of the rips and the scratches is by allowing it to touch our hearts to the point that we become yeilded before him and when we yeild(stop) the Lord can began.

The promises have be spoken; in the beginning God knew the plans he had for you; before he created the dirt from which man was created and the rib from which woman was delivered; God knew and his knowing was perfect then and its perfect now. So, I encourage you to yeild your self(stop)and allow God to do what he planned for you before a dream knew it was a dream.

Yes, you have bruises, you have seen storms, your knees are bloody from the fall,but God says get up and know that I have you; ripped, scratched and all. "I".

I know that your situations are real; I am not discounting that; but what I am saying; is count on God and speak life(good) over your situations; God can do what he said, he has been blessing us since before birth. Things happen to elevate us, sometimes we have to go through a storm to get out the boat but guess what, my brothers and sisters. When we get out that boat we have confidence because; we know that the Lord has already walked on water;so its blesses and though we dont see him in our flesh we know that he is there in our spirit and his presence on that water is our life jacket.

So, We will survive the storm, and we will get out the boat.

We will get some rips, some scratches, but God says I got you. If you need an example of God having your back; catch a glimpse of a cross; a man, arms stretched, nails in hands, nails in feet, pierced in his sides; thorns penetrating his skull; with a will, a plan for you, a love for you, stretched boldly under the heavens saying " I told you I got you".

That was Jesus on the cross for me, for you, for the world, it was His plan, nothing happens without cause. God has a purpose for it all and there is a deliverance, a new thing, a rebirth, a blessing that follows a crucifixion.

Your dreams seem crucified, your hope has been nailed, your heart has been pierced but on the third day they did not find this man's body in a tomb;because God had a plan that this must happen to get to the new revelation, this must take place to birth new hope, this must happen so they will not die, this must happen so they know who has the control, this must happen so that they understand the difference between my will and theirs.

See, man's will (desire) was to kill Jesus, but God's will was to heal man. So, he allowed it because he planned it; he knew the end of the story.How great is God's love to love the very one's that plotted and killed his perfect son. That's love! God had to have a plan; he allowed it. For me and For you.

He knew this man; they call Jesus was His PLAN AND HIS PLAN WAS PERFECT and he sent him and that he was not JUST a man but the Savior of the world, Lord to those who killed him and later chose him; he knew;it was planned.

Face your fears knowing that on the third day that Jesus was not in the grave; God had raised him and in that death of the man; the Saviour was born and the sinful, could now be redeemed and understand that you make fall, you may suffer, but your rips, your scratches are perfect; every line because God has a plan. Haulelujah!

Yes, nails, piercing, mocking, it was painful, the cross it was heavy, but God says he will not put more on us than we can bare; take this encouragement knowing that with your scratches, rips and all. God said it is so and it will be; because he has a perfect plan for you and me.God knows the end to the story. Trust him!

God in the name of Jesus; I pray for your child here now reading this
will be blessed, whatever, they are going through; open up their hearts and minds to
your truth. Faith, will be strengthen today, Homes will be restored, Jobs will be revived, Children will be seen as a blessing, Bodies will be healed, hope will transcend all understanding, Peace will rest within us all. I thank you God for your presence, your truth and your wisdom, thank you for the rips, the scratches, the storms and the RESURRECTION. Thank you Lord for your mercy, thank you for favor, thank you for changing our outcome. Thank you Lord, in Jesus name, Amen!